HELLO MY FRIEND


Where is that man, where did he go

Feels like he lived one hundred years ago

I miss his room, I miss his bed,

I miss the white that surrounded him


Acceptance came, eventually

Always the pain, but the body lean

I always see, him lying there

With faith renewed, no longer scared


Hello to you my friend

What a surprise to see you again

Never thought I’d ever see you-

Did you come for me

I can walk now, I can talk now,

I can do anything that I want now,

watchin it, watchin it, watchin it - all turn around


The pain you felt, I couldn’t know

The damage done, the path you chose

‘It fills me up, I want to burst

And I keep this guilt because it hurts


Hello to you my friend

What a surprise for me to see you again

Alone I’ll never be

Did you ever think you’d see me

Did I come for you, I can walk now, I can talk now, I can do anything that I want now, watchin it, watchin it, watchin it all emptying out

GETTING USED TO


Sometimes it hurts so much

the only thing I want to do is run away

I can’t see anything beyond this

not even what’s in front of me


You talk and talk and talk, I listen

but never really hear what you say

Get me back to the pain I used to know

where someone always brought me relief


I’ve watched myself

take everything I’ve wanted

making sure it stays out of reach

Telling myself

I’m there before I’ve started

folding lies until they’re beliefs


How long can we go on this way

this measure of disorder

Getting used to  - Getting used to (it)


DON’T YOU FEEL NOTHIN


Just allow myself another minute to brace my fall

I know you’ve seen this act before,

you’ve seen it all

But I’ll get up and try it one more time

Like a turkey drinkin water, drowning till he dies


My feet don’t fail me, but my heart always does

With a little less heart I could go

and leave the ones I love

But I guess I’m stayin here until it all plays out

Just singing with the rest of em, nothing special,

nothin to talk about


Don’t you feel bad, don’t you feel good,

don’t you feel sad

Don’t you feel nothing standing here,

talking like that

It’s all bullshit just whining whining as you go

So just put it down then, shut up and

turn the TV on


So I laid on the couch

And watched history come and go

And I felt the good, I felt the low

I know now forever it won’t be the same

It’s another world from me, an unfamiliar game   


Don’t you feel bad, don’t you feel good

Don’t you feel sad

Don’t you feel nothing standing here,

talking like that

It’s all bullshit just whining whining as you go

So just put it down then, shut up, pick up a book

and read it real slow

i wish i was


Small enough so you can’t see

Squint your eyes and you’ll still miss me

Underneath a bedroom floor

i wish i was i wish i was


Late at night climb from my crib

Across the kitchen floor then sit

Underneath the table chairs

I’d hold on tight like I wasn’t there


Take me take me far away

To Capitan way out in space

Take me where I’ve been before

Take me home this time I’m sure


I wish I’d been my father’s son

Make him proud or let me think he was

Pocket - knives and some other stuff

Got a ton guilt but it ain’t enough


So take me to that field again

Where I laid all night and the moon was lit

The wind blew warm and I wasn’t afraid

Until I was - so they never came

HEY DARLIN


I’m pulling in with a heavy load

In the middle of this night

Got that mountain in the back of my head

And the moon off to my right

It makes me cry cause it feels so good

And bad at the same time

But I’m glad I’m doing this again before I die.


Hey Darlin, I sing this song for you

Hey Darlin, I’d be with you if I could

Hey Darlin, I don’t talk to God no more

Ever since he took the only thing

that mattered in this world.


I’m coming back to what I know

To walk these fields again

To make my peace with everything,

my enemies, my friends

And I know that would make you happy

So I’ll try hard to move it along,

And fill this ache with something else

Besides this sad old song

BEAT BOX HOUSE


Leave behind all these troubles

Embrace accept a brand new world

Healing from the inside I’ll be fine

I tell myself the worry’s over

Take these weights off my shoulders

And let the light - blind me in my eyes


You’ve given me all you’ve got

You kept your faith while other’s stopped

Made me whole and I believe again

Take this time to take a breath

Leave the worrying for all the rest

Keep doing what you do, cause there’s no end


My mother father knew – got nothing do with you

There’s something bigger than the whole

Step out and leave behind -

pain that can’t be defined

Hey, you’ve got your body and now your soul

All songs written by Carmen Yates ©